this song playing is someone who introduce to me. the 1st song that he sang that let me feels that he have a nice and beautiful voice. someone that reaches the deepiest point of my heart . someone that share joy , happiness , sadness , laughter ad tears with me. someone that i love so much . someone i care . someone that show me what is love. someone that will really make me shed so much tears for him . someone that gently kiss on my forehead. someone that hug me tightly and say he loves me. someone that can go crazy with me . someone that can talk anything under the sun . someone that wipe away my tears. someone who wants goodnight kiss on phone. someone who say he dont care, but he do care. all this is a nice memories to me. maybe you dont notice all this. but i do . i dont know when you will saw this post . or even remember me . remember the promise we made to each other?11th of january . i will be waiting for you till that day . where are you bunny ?

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|9:11 AM|

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okay . derrick want me to blog.
so i guess is time for me to blog le. (:
hmm. yes derrick .
you finally have your holiday ! (: wahaha.
dont need come and suan me ah (:

okays. nothing much actually .
i am busy with my work .
but i am happy . (:

someone left me again .
come back to me and left quietly.
what is that ?
okay . whatever . up to you .
i am tired of that actually .

anyway . wanna say something that really throw my face into the bin .
haa. i fell down at my working place!
i am so paiseh lor ! haa.
but is okay . i am willing to share.
lOls. because i find it very funny (:
but haa. is okay lar.
fall down is very common ah ? hee.

hmm. guess i am having fun with my job ?
yes. but i better dont get scolded lor.

nowadays, i getting very high .
i just love to listen to noisy music.
turn on the volume till loud loud.
techno ! haa. i simply love that nowadays .
what happen to me ? wahaha.
whatever . (:

hmm. guess gonna stop here.
DERRICK . I UPDATE LE ! (:

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|4:23 PM|

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i know all this is just a dream .
in the begin i know is a dream .
i have woke up from my dream .
is a nice dream indeed.
i can see and talk to you once again .

but i guess all this end last night.
when i wake up today ,
i saw myself lying on bed with nothing left .
but memories flipping through my mind.
thank God , at least he let me enjoy the few weeks with him once again .

even though the dream is short .
but i am satisfied .

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|10:30 AM|

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i just have the urge to blog.
i cant sleep . :( so sad uh .
i gonna go for interview on tuesday .
yesyes ! i am very excited .
i want to get my first pay . (:

oHh ya . i just upload a new song.
i love this song.
shared it with all of you . hee . (:
i gonna go sec 4 next year. !
my result was pretty good i guess.
only my maths and science sounded horrible. !
but nah . is okays.
i will try harder. (:

thank God i did not retain .
as you know , retain is a signal of laziness.
why ? because people who retain did not try hard as they were lazy .
so i am not going to retain .
yes. i know i am prideful .
but who is not prideful ? (:

hMm. okays. i think thats all . (:

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|12:13 PM|

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i never go to school today .
i skip school again .
hMm. i also dont know what happen to me.
getting very lazy . (:
hMm.. today school have farewell for grad and mr tay .
haa. i missed it. haa.

he perform in one of the item .
hMm. he wish to perform for very long.
finally have a chance. thats good.
i guess he perform well . (:

hMm.. i went to look for job.
haa. but still haven call me leh .
haa. yesyes. i am impatient .
just 1 day and i am wondering when they will call .
YES IMPATIENT.
hMM.. school gonna end , thats great . hee .

ohH ya. this song you are hearing now.
nice rty? hee. to me is nice lar.
haa . hMm. i just love this song lots .
if you watch the drama , you will find it nice. (:

sometimes i find that friendship is kinda weird lor.
hMm. should friend lie to each other ?
friends should be honest with each other right ?
but somehow she is not honest with me .
tHats why i am angry .
haIs. i really lost hope.
i think i will wash hands over her matters .
cause i help her too much till i numb.

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|10:15 PM|

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i have to go to school today !
arrgh . i am so tired okay .
went to singapore discovery centre.
yes ! is very boring lar.
i dont enjoy anything there.
because i just wanna present myself .
or else my house phone will keep ringing. (:

hMm. I wanna get a jOb soon .
i am waiting . haa.
i am looking forward to work .
can kill my time .
or else holiday will be bored !
hMm..
but when holiday comes,
haehae.
i miss school ! lOls.
hUman are like that lar ahh .

oKies. i find myself get happier and happier each day !
yes . i will be very happy . (:
i gonna forget hIm !
yesyes ! i will . (:
without him , my life will be better. yea?
hee.. yes !

i believe i can !
okays. thats all .
gOnna stop today . . (:

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|7:08 PM|

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yes. i want to give you up .
but can i ?
i always say i wanna give you up .
i wanna hate you .
but i cant. seriously. i cant.
what should i do ?

i say i wanna give back all the pain you have given me to you .
but in the end , i just cant give back to you .
i scared you get hurt .
why am i like this ?
i really dont understand why am i like this.

i keep saying i wanna have holidays.
but in my heart i know that i will miss you like crazy .
my heart really very confused.
the moment i saw you go home and come to school with her.
my heart really hurts.
is like a knife that stub me right through my heart.

in school i have to act as if i am so happy ,
but actually my heart is bleeding.
i want to let you know that i am fine.
if you find someone that really lOves you ,
i am willing to let you go as i love you too much .
even though this day will come,
i still have to let you go .

yes. i still love you very much .
maybe all this to you is no longer important.
because i have leave your heart so long.
in school , we are like total stranger.
my heart really hurts.

nobody will know how i feel .
how much i miss the past .
you dont seems to care how i feel .

i still remember how you leave me.
how you say things that hurt me.
the way you dont want me anymore.
till now my heart still hurt .

i really wanna continue to bring my joy,
love into your life.
but you doesnt want to open your heart to let me.
i have waited for sometime.
waiting for you to bring me back into your heart.

i thought on the 11 of oct you will patch with me.
but i am wrong.
but hope just vanish into the air.
maybe i think too much .
i will not have you in my life anymore.

is okie. i just want you to have your happiness.
i dont want to see you get hurt anymore.
i dont want to give back all the hurt you have given to me.
i dont want already .
as long you find someone better,
i will be happy for you .

i will always remember the love and nicest memories i ever had.
tHanks for everyday for the past few mths.

0nce up0n a time... i believed.
|8:54 PM|

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